My name is E and I am a 20-something living with bipolar disorder. I've been living with a mental illness since I was at least 16. I now have a college degree and a successful career. Nonetheless, I still battle my disorder every day. I had been in full recovery for about 3 years until a new, severe episode of depression struck last year. This is my story.
So since going back to work in the spring my exercise has totally stopped! I’ve tried to get back at it but I can’t stand these hot summers! I cancelled my gym membership because it was not convenient and I just wasn’t going. My husband tried to get my treadmill working but something is majorly wrong with it so I can’t use it. I got a Wii Fit virtually for free but it’s still in the box. Go me!! I bought a biggest loser DVD at the recommendation of a friend and I finally tried it on my lunch hour since I now work from home twice a week to help manage stress. I made it through the 10 minute warm up and that was it! My friend said it’s okay but I feel like a total bum! I got a free health coach through work and we are trying to work on my weight. She has me drinking as much water as possible each day and watching my carbs. My next hurdle is increasing my exercise. We agreed that I’d do 3 or 4 days a week walking or my DVD. I check in with her again in a month and I’d like to have dropped a few more pounds by then.
I’m going to Hawaii on vacation at the beginning of March so is really like to lose as much as I can by then.
Anyway, today I did the warm up on the DVD then after work I went outside and did 4 laps up and down my driveway. That is a big deal because my drive way is at least 1/8 of a mile long partially up hill! So I estimate I walked about a mile this afternoon. Now I just have to try to do that a few times a week and I’ll be good. But our walking challenge started at work today with our Fitbits and I’m on a team with 3 coworkers and I don’t want to seem totally lazy! So hopefully these things are enough motivation to keep me going for awhile.
I know exercising will help fight my depression that keeps wanting to creep back in yet, and were heading into fall! I’ve now been in this episode of depression for a year and I am totally fed up with it! I want to be stable again and in control of my moods! I was stable for the longest time before this. So hopefully the exercise will stick and help me.
Until next time,